Being able to Love and Appreciate

Being able to Love and Appreciate

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
I have been studying and working to embody the state of non-attachement and it is HARD because it is the OPPOSITE of everything we've been told, showed, and taught within this society. The idea of being able to love and appreciate without a need for perceived ownership or attachment is stretching! However, I love it! It offers an opportunity for such peace, empathy, and understanding for the reality that the only permanence is impermanence! By being non attached we allow the space for the people in our lives to grow, shift, and change as need be. That goes for our children, mates, friends, etc.. And it also allows us to accept if that growth leads us to diverging paths and to be able to release from a place of gratitude…
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Convicted by my own hypocrisy…

Convicted by my own hypocrisy…

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
How can I with power and authority lead others on a path to mental wellness when my own is in shambles? I can not.  My lack of self-care and inattention to my own well being while using other peoples struggles to distract me from my own has lead me to see my actions for what they were, hypocrisy. I can not in good faith ask others to do what I was unwilling to do myself.  I could no longer extol the benefits of self-affirmations, exercise, mindfulness, rest, meditation, and, fearlessness when I was gripped by fear and self-doubt. Fear had a hold.  Fear gave me permission to do nothing, to use my circumstances as a reason for complacency, to shrink my responsibility to myself and to you.  I retreated over and…
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Mental Illness Isn’t Sexy but it’s Real:  Lets Talk About It

Mental Illness Isn’t Sexy but it’s Real: Lets Talk About It

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
We have a problem.  A really big problem.  A problem that is difficult to talk about but easy to minimize.  A problem that is so insidious that some of us don't even acknowledge that there is a problem.  Or that some of us deem it "their problem".  Or we ridicule those who acknowledge, accept, and attempt to fix the problem.  And the problem is just getting worse. Mental Illness is real.  It is not a sign of weakness. A lack of faith.  A cry for attention.  An issue that we can afford to keep defunding and expect everything to be OK. The prevalence of mental illness is becoming more and more apparent as care is becoming more negligent.  Ignoring mental illness doesn't make it go away. Recently I have seen…
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F Balance, Be Intentional Instead!

F Balance, Be Intentional Instead!

Esteem, Life Transitions/Life Purpose
I fell hook, line, and sinker for the elusive goal of obtaining balance.  I even wrote a poem about it here.  But what is balance actually?  As I think more about my life and how it is in constant flux I become anxious for the need to get it all lined up just so.  I picture myself walking on a tight rope, focus honed in on the task at hand.  Unable to move left or right for fear of free falling.  Rigid in my movements.  The flexibility to adjust? Drastically limited.  And what I come away with is a life filled with restraint.  No room to breathe too deeply because I may throw off my weight distribution on the rope.  No freedom to take in my surroundings because a loss…
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Wednesday Wisdom

Wednesday Wisdom

Effective Communication, Life Transitions/Life Purpose
Being vulnerable does not make you a sucker.   Asking for help does not make you weak. Engaging in therapy does not make you a heathen Accepting support does not make you a leech. Crying does not make you soft. Wanting comfort does not make you needy Missing someone does not make you clingy Being angry doesn't mean you're out of control Wanting to feel safe doesn't mean you're controlling Wanting the clamor inside your head to be quiet does not make you crazy. None of theses things are inherently negative.  They are Human. You are Human.  You have a right to feel however you feel.  The goal is to become self aware.  To use discernment so we are not victims of others or our own mismanaged emotions.  Acknowledge them.…
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Sickle Cell, up close and personal; National Sickle Cell Awareness Month

Sickle Cell, up close and personal; National Sickle Cell Awareness Month

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
I am the mother of three, including a set of twins, one of which has sickle cell. In honor of September’s sickle cell awareness month, we share our story. The disorder runs on my father's side of the family and I lost two older brothers from sickle cell complications. I learned that my youngest daughter had sickle cell from her newborn screen.  After the initial shock and confusion (My ex husband and I were unaware that he carried the trait although we were aware that I had it) I did everything I could to become educated on the disease. Sickle Cell is a blood disorder that causes the red blood cells to change from their normal pliable circular shape to a sickle shape. These cells are sticky and can become stuck in blood vessels, leading…
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Be an authority over your own thoughts: A hard conversation with myself

Be an authority over your own thoughts: A hard conversation with myself

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
Woke up this morning and felt unsettled in my spirit.  I found out something that made me start to question myself.  It was causing feelings of bitterness and was disrupting my productivity.  These thoughts were stealing my contentment.  I tried to swallow down the frustration but it got stuck in my chest.  I could feel it tightening.  My head started to hurt and I felt my hands contracting into fist.  I started asking the questions? Why not me? Why are things so difficult for me? Why must I always struggle? Where is my break? Why is everyone else prospering and I'm having such a hard time? And on and on. Then I stopped. I stopped and checked myself.  Sure, life isn't fair, but my journey is my own and I…
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