F Balance, Be Intentional Instead!

F Balance, Be Intentional Instead!

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
I fell hook, line, and sinker for the elusive goal of obtaining balance.  I even wrote a poem about it here.  But what is balance actually?  As I think more about my life and how it is in constant flux I become anxious for the need to get it all lined up just so.  I picture myself walking on a tight rope, focus honed in on the task at hand.  Unable to move left or right for fear of free falling.  Rigid in my movements.  The flexibility to adjust? Drastically limited.  And what I come away with is a life filled with restraint.  No room to breathe too deeply because I may throw off my weight distribution on the rope.  No freedom to take in my surroundings because a loss…
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Can’t conceal my blood tinged tears: Suicide Prevention Month

Can’t conceal my blood tinged tears: Suicide Prevention Month

Life Transitions/Life Purpose
In addition to Sickle Cell Awareness, September is also Suicide Awareness Month and today is the beginning of Suicide Prevention Week. Suicide is not a topic most want to discuss.  It makes us uncomfortable.  It brings up so many conflicting thoughts: anger, shame, blame, frustration, guilt, hurt, sadness just to name a few.  All of those emotions are valid. Suicide starts with a thought.  Things would be easier if I wasn't here.  Whether we want to admit it or not, most if not all of us have had this thought, most of us shake it off and keep going.  It's a momentary frustration with life as we navigate our struggles. Damn, if I just didn't exist, if I killed myself now,  I would not have to deal with all of…
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Stress Management as a Family Unit

Stress Management as a Family Unit

Trauma/Triggers/Coping
What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger: Dealing with stress in the family as a family. Strong families are beneficial to not only themselves but to the communities in which they reside; they are the building blocks of society.  Unfortunately even the strongest family can be shaken by stress.   However, the stress itself is not so much the problem but how it is dealt with.   The mismanagement of stress can lead to fissures in the foundation of the family system. Effective communication is the best tool for a family to use to successfully navigate stressors, and often the most underutilized.  People tend to deal with stress in silos.  Opting to go it alone opposed to coming together to tackle it as a team; from the teen being bullied at school,…
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Help for the helpers

Help for the helpers

Trauma/Triggers/Coping
On occasion I will share personal experiences in an effort to make of myself a mirror. To reflect back my struggles and my growth so that others don't feel alone. I help because I understand I understand because I've been there and I return there with the hopes of bringing someone else out with me... It's difficult being in the helping profession when you yourself are not on solid ground. I have experienced some trials and tribulations and as much as part of me wants to hold on to anger and bitterness, as much as I feel I have a right to these emotions; that they are some how righteous, I also know that clinging to them is hindering me. It is negatively effecting everything I do, from my business…
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When they tell you to just pray…

When they tell you to just pray…

Trauma/Triggers/Coping
You can't pray away depression, or any mental illness. Some might find that statement offensive. But the reality is that many people, especially minorities, view therapy as an affront to God. "I don't need therapy, I just need to pray harder." Or maybe you can pray to be guided to a professional that can help you. Therapy is a tool to help achieve mental wellness, and should be seen as such. In my opinion, not utilizing the tools which can help us become more fully what we were created to be is much more of an affront. Prayer WITH WORK works. Seeking and going to counseling is doing the work, and you are worthy of it. You are meant to be holistically well. Yulinda Rock
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Balance…

Balance…

Trauma/Triggers/Coping
Balance elusive yet desirable attainable but sacrifices must be made to reach the Bliss point where all things sit on their perch just so letting go of one to uplift the other sister mother lover friend in the end there is a give and take or in the wake of the tumultuous juggling will be broken things scattered at your feet So I repeat Balance desirable but hard to maintain one must refrain from doing too much or not Enough rebuffed by the pressure to do all to not let anything fall by the wayside Pride we must check respect your limitations by celebrating all that you do in lieu of perfection we honor intentions make sure yours are pure sacrifice all that you were In order to become the…
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Anchor

Anchor

Esteem, self-care
It's been a quiet month of January for me. It made me anxious that I had not posted. I felt compelled to force communication and every time I came here to post, it felt unauthentic, so I chose silence. And in that silence I remained true to myself. Often we do things not because we want to but because we feel we should. At times sacrificing to the point where we have nothing left, not even for ourselves. Does this sound familiar? Giving from a place which others do not replenish, leaving it empty? It is a wonderful thing to be caring. To want to help others, but not if it diminishes you. That way lies bitterness. Im not exempt from the lesson. It took me a while to get…
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Check your gauge…

Check your gauge…

Body image/Disordered Eating
This spoke to me because I am guilty. There is no reward for over extending yourself. There is no glory in neglecting your own needs for the sake of saying yes to others. There is courage and wisdom in recognizing and honoring your limits. Imagine how much further you could go and how many more you could help if you occasionally did a self check to ascertain your own needs. Being self aware enough to stop to refuel takes a lot less time than having to stop for costly and timely repairs from running too long on E. Be sure to check your gauge. You are worthy of being holistically well... Yulinda Rock
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